Bitch, you have one more time.

I look in the mirror and I can’t even recognize myself.

“I done did so much that when you see you might go blind”.

J. Cole- Kevin’s Heart

So is anybody else tired of themselves?

No just me? Must be last weeks retrograde talking.

What I mean is, you know you have a problem with: Showing up on time.

Working out, not eating healthily.

Staying consistent with xyz.

So you went and bought a journal, applied for a gym membership. You bought water bottles and you’ve been consistent BUT today you’re tired and you say “I’ll pick back up next week”. Next thing you know it’s been a month.

Anyone else?

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Consistency (n)- conformity in the application of something.

➡️My problem right here ⬅️

So many things in my life are like this right now.

I came back from Sedona with a target on my life. I was tired of my own shit. I came back ready to face demons and slay dragons.

I read a horoscope that detailed Pisces’ laziness some time after that. Let me say that I am 1000000% a doer in life, but I notice that I DO slip into depression (auto correct said desperation, I won’t argue with her) at any point and WHAM there goes my progress.

Now, I’m done with that. I literally am sick of myself. I feel like the hole in my family’s ship. Like it’s not the water around us that makes us sink, but the hole. And I could very well be the hole.

A free Zuri without a schedule is a hole.

So I plugged it. On Sunday I came clean to my hubby about all the things I’ve NOT been doing.

We agreed (LMAO). And formulated a plan.

Ima put my head down, mind my business and save aggressively.

Let’s see where we can be in 30 days.

Now that I’ve spilled all the beans what is something you’ve been meaning to work on?

Let’s take this time to get better together! To combatmy chronic laziness and addiction to stressing myself out I’ve come up with a plan and a schedule.

I suggest that with whatever you’re trying to accomplish to write down the process.

Remember, Rome wasn’t built in a day. Today is a great day to start healthy new habits.

We can have what we want in life if we work hard for it and if we believe we can.

What do you choose to believe about yourself today? ✨

ZullyMaMa is a safe space for all the mamas ‘nem. I’d like to welcome all the new subscribers and THANK EVERYONE for being here. As always you can connect with me on Instagram @raisingren and on Facebook as Zuri Risper.